grrltastic: (rain)
 I'm here,  on what is essentially the eve of my new life, missing 2011. Again. Still. I don't know. 

Objectively, I know that I was desperately miserable during that time. But at the same time, my good days were so much better than anything I get now. I was building myself up from scratch and had nothing but potential. And I knew it. 

I dunno. Stable, adult life is just so... tepid. I hate it. 
grrltastic: (tank girl)
Today is Saturday.

Yesterday at work I officially accepted my offer, with a start date of January 9th.

Tomorrow Trish and I are going to look at a really lovely rental house in a pretty good neighborhood. We're also on the list go see a really fabulous town house in an excellent neighborhood kind of whenever the property managers there get their shit together. (Yes, rent in Portland is that high.)

On Wednesday I will take my last-ever final.

On Friday the term will end.

On Saturday I will commence my month-long nap, because I will have finally Done The Thing.
grrltastic: (tank girl)
 Just FYI: My goal for the next 4 years is to do my best to ignore that a federal government even exists. Anything you can do to help support that is greatly appreciated. 

Warpaint

Nov. 9th, 2016 12:25 pm
grrltastic: (tank girl)
The benefit of having shitty things happen in your 20s is that when shitty things happen in your 30s, you have a rough map for how to proceed. It doesn't suck any less, but I've got my knapsack packed and I know how to navigate the path ahead.

I graduate in 30 days and then I will be ready to fuck shit up. And fuck shit up I shall.
grrltastic: (computer science)
You guys I AM GETTING SO CLOSE TO THE END.

I have four weeks left of class, and then finals, and then I will receive the golden ticket to the rest of my life. I have been talking to recruiters and touring offices and interviewing with hiring managers. I am going to graduate soon, and I am going to have a job.

This is causing me really intense anxiety. Apparently somewhere along the way I learned that feeling hopeful about stuff is the quickest way to soul-crushing disappointment.

So that's fun. But, like, OMG. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
grrltastic: (Default)
Things that I am feeling really hard tonight: As an individual, there's only so far that you can get in terms of knowing other people. There's a certain amount of loneliness that you always have to live with.

Soggy.

Oct. 26th, 2016 04:22 pm
grrltastic: (rain)
 We're going to get through the entirety of October with only 2 rain-free days. I am losing my goddamn mind. 
grrltastic: (menstrual dreamer)
This seems to be a topic of conversation lately, and I have a couple thoughts.

Gross! )


grrltastic: (rain)
 Type, erase.
Type, erase.
Type, erase.

There are a lot of things going on in my head right now, and I'm having a hard time separating the threads enough to explain any of them with any degree of accuracy.

Posts forthcoming.

False alarm

Oct. 3rd, 2016 10:03 pm
grrltastic: (rain)
So, it turns out the rainy season is still a thing, and it still definitely fucks with my ability to be a happy, functional human.

Nothing to see here, move along. 
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