And again

 We're going on Austin vacation on Thursday and, as always: feelings. So many feelings.

I'm recognizing that I am a person who always hates the place that I live. A big part of this is yearning for the place that I just came from, insisting that it was the panacea to all of my current ills.

After I made the switch to full time normal hours person in June, I found that my relationship with Portland improved immensely. And, for the most part, my day to day life is much happier and more satisfying than it was before. I'm forming an actual bond with places in the city; I'm remembering how to go places by myself and live the life that I want to live but I still can't quite find that balance that I really feel that I need.

I guess we'll see.