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'Tis the season for Spotify's Christmas Cocktail Jazz playlist, and there's nothing you can do to stop me.
I've been thinking a lot recently about platonic intimacy and what that means. Lately I feel like I'm struggling to make real connections with friends. I suspect it's rooted in 2+ years of isolation/pandemic anxiety, but it often feels like there's just too much to unpack to get around to the root of what's actually going on in my life.
I also encountered this when I was like "self, I'm going to start using social media to cultivate actual human relationships" (which is a sentiment that makes my eyes roll out of my head but also I'm so, so lonely so whatever) and then had to think about being actually vulnerable.
I don't understand how I managed this when I was in my teens/twenties.
I've been thinking a lot recently about platonic intimacy and what that means. Lately I feel like I'm struggling to make real connections with friends. I suspect it's rooted in 2+ years of isolation/pandemic anxiety, but it often feels like there's just too much to unpack to get around to the root of what's actually going on in my life.
I also encountered this when I was like "self, I'm going to start using social media to cultivate actual human relationships" (which is a sentiment that makes my eyes roll out of my head but also I'm so, so lonely so whatever) and then had to think about being actually vulnerable.
I don't understand how I managed this when I was in my teens/twenties.
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