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The dream thing is slowly getting better, which is great.

I accidentally poked my "wow US politics are really shitty right now" bruise tonight though. I've been doing such an effective job of compartmentalizing that I kind of forgot how utterly devastating that feeling is. Bleh.

Current Mood: anxious

It sucks to acknowledge that the dissolution of my marriage left lasting effects on me. But, like, here we are.

I can't tell if it's a Midwestern thing or not, this belief that continuing to be harmed by past events is a sign of weakness. Either way, it's supremely unhelpful in learning how to exert the kind of boundaries I need to feel safe.

Because I don't right now.

Current Mood: figuring it out

1) I had a chiropractic appointment yesterday wherein I learned that my shit's fucked up because I have scoliosis. I also go to have a bunch of x-rays taken in which I could see the outline of my menstrual cup, so that was A+.

2) Second therapy appointment today. It seemed good at the time, but I have a lot of Feelings™ now, so ugh.

Today, for the first time in the 15 years that I've been using a menstrual cup, I dropped it in the toilet while emptying it.

Twice.

Current Mood: distressed

Current WIPs:

Bed quilt
- Status: 22% complete
- Getting a better workflow in place. It's more labor-intensive, but it makes the process much easier.
Commuter bike cable/brake replacement
- Status: 99% complete
- Waiting on a surprise! part I needed to come in.
- I did kind of a meh job, but it'll be fine. I don't need to win pro points to get back and forth to work.
Website commission
- Status: 25% complete
- Hosting a work party on Saturday and hopefully will make some headway.

It feels good to be getting my productivity feet back under me. There are still many, many things that I want to do that don't quite fit (yardwork, deep-cleaning the house, making some curtains, etc), but I'll probably get there eventually. Maybe.

Current Mood: busy

Current WIPs:

Bed quilt
- Status: 15% complete
- Next steps: Keep truckin'. For, like, a long time.
- Estimated completion date: 2047. Or, like, soonish because it'd be great to have a more appropriate-weight blanket for the bed.
Commuter bike cable/brake replacement
- Status: 1% complete (I bought the stuff)
- Next steps: Take the old parts off, put the new parts on
- Estimated completion date: IDK. Like 4 hours after I finally get around to starting.
Website commission
- Status: 25% complete
- Next steps: Translate the proof into a WordPress template
- Estimated completion date: Mid-November (this is a firm deadline)

Essentially, this means I have to find a way to be productive after work because my weekends are too unpredictable to be able to count on getting anything done.

Current Mood: busy

Okay so my new job is fucking boss and I'm super stoked about it.

That is all.

Current Mood: pleased

There's a whole host of things that I really want to have finished, but almost no things that I actually feel like doing.

Ugh.

Current Mood: lazy

Oh baby, why am I worried now?
Did someone make a fool of me
Before I could show them how it's done?

I can't give up acting tough
It's all that I'm made of.
Can't scrape together quite enough
To ride the bus
To the outskirts of the fact that I need love.

Neko Case - Middle Cyclone

I've listened to the new Kesha album like half a dozen times since it came out last week, and it is giving me Feelings. Unsurprisingly, I may have some residual Stuff™ from previous relationships that I haven't actually sorted out yet.

Current Mood: pensive

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