Day Thirty Three

[grrltastic]

 It's been just over a month since I started taking St. John's Wort (350mg TID, for those following along at home).

At this point I feel like I can safely say that I'm really impressed with its performance. It's helped to dispel the constant sense of pointlessness that used to follow me around. Now when I have quiet moments, I feel content as opposed to fixating on small imperfections in my life. When I think about my past, I'm happy with the experiences I have had and happy with the potential to have different experiences in my present and future, rather than feeling like I'll never be able to be that happy/loved/included/successful/(whatever thing I'd decided was missing from my life) again. I feel more motivated to seek out active entertainment - I started knitting regularly again after several years' lapse.

I have also reconnected with several friends in a really emotionally intimate way over the last month. This may or may not be related, but it feels really good nonetheless.

Not kind of wanting to die most of the time is so awesome, you guys. I had no idea.

Comments

[pinesandmaples]

Oh, poppet, this is wonderful. <3

[grrltastic]

<3 It really, really is. Thank you!