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grrltastic I've been feeling very homesick for Austin lately*, in a completely ineffective, arm-flaily, hand-wringy way that's not accomplishing anything at all.
*Lately, as in since DST ended and now the sun comes up at 8 and goes down at 4. This is only a mild exaggeration - according to the national weather service, today's sunrise was 7:20am and sunset was 4:33pm. I know those of you in Canada will have no pity for me here, but hopefully those of you in more southerly locales will appreciate how much this sucks butts.**
**Or maybe it started after the election when all of those contentious yet very predictably disappointing things happened in Texas and the biggest cliffhanger in Oregon was whether or not we were going to require labeling of GMO foods, and I have a really hard time kicking it with people who feel like that's something important enough to have on a ballot. Also I'm still mad about the fluoride thing. Goddamn these people.
Anyway.
In the interest of acknowledging that sometimes I like to just chase myself around in ennui circles, I'm trying to identify what I can do from here to make things better. So far the answer has been "take more vitamins." It's not helping as much as I'd hoped. Or really at all.
So, meh. I'm just going to miss Texas furiously despite the fact that I left it because it wasn't what I needed. I acknowledge that this is absurd, and I just don't care. Evidently it's something that I need to write about and process because otherwise it just festers in my brain, even if I do feel very foolish for feeling so strongly like I need to be there right-this-very-instant because if it was such a great place, then why did I have to leave it?
This is a complicated relationship.
*Lately, as in since DST ended and now the sun comes up at 8 and goes down at 4. This is only a mild exaggeration - according to the national weather service, today's sunrise was 7:20am and sunset was 4:33pm. I know those of you in Canada will have no pity for me here, but hopefully those of you in more southerly locales will appreciate how much this sucks butts.**
**Or maybe it started after the election when all of those contentious yet very predictably disappointing things happened in Texas and the biggest cliffhanger in Oregon was whether or not we were going to require labeling of GMO foods, and I have a really hard time kicking it with people who feel like that's something important enough to have on a ballot. Also I'm still mad about the fluoride thing. Goddamn these people.
Anyway.
In the interest of acknowledging that sometimes I like to just chase myself around in ennui circles, I'm trying to identify what I can do from here to make things better. So far the answer has been "take more vitamins." It's not helping as much as I'd hoped. Or really at all.
So, meh. I'm just going to miss Texas furiously despite the fact that I left it because it wasn't what I needed. I acknowledge that this is absurd, and I just don't care. Evidently it's something that I need to write about and process because otherwise it just festers in my brain, even if I do feel very foolish for feeling so strongly like I need to be there right-this-very-instant because if it was such a great place, then why did I have to leave it?
This is a complicated relationship.
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